I don`t know why I am writing this post , but I have the that feeling to share the experience that has shaped my identity . I don`t feel ashamed , No one should , because I understand that God has a plan for me & I know it is for the Good .
Accepting my Infritality came after I been through waves of anger , weakness and many breakdowns . The road of treatment is challenging and difficult, but no matter how hard was this experience , I wouldn't take my infertility back .
If I wasn’t diagnosed with unexplained infertility (this is my case now ) I will never be able to learn many valuable lessons about my character , this issue always dealt by self sympathy , shame and sorrow , but by accepting that this is my disease & learning to live with it every day of my life gave me the strength to confront these emotions , I gave myself the permission to rage and cry and then , took my first step in my new road of happiness and peace of mind .
J has the major role, this experience puts our marriage in the test, he was always there for me , supporting & showing his love .
I feel happy, proud and thankful, and yes, I talk about it openly : )