mixed feelings

I don`t know why i keep doing that , arguing with J

& I know after few minutes will not be able to continue my day , so I  call him an apologize

I can`t stand it if he is mad or angry :( but what I have to say what I said on the first place


When I am thinking a lot I feel lost ,  I need to be with him but I am stuck here


I don't know why I feel guilty :(


I have mixed feelings , what`s wrong ??


I really miss these kind of posts

to just explode and type what comes to my mind



J

I am really sorry

please forgive my craziness