i guess i am back to main reason i created this blog , to express my feelings and the real me .
The real me is not an angel , I have lots of confessions , some people may hate me , but as i said before I created my blog to feel free .
Not to review a restaurant , not to do some "da3aya" to a product , saloon or to talk about fashion , it's about me
I will repeat the same thoughts , worries if i felt that i need to do that .
I am not a good person , that makes me feel bad .
All that house thing is horrible . I can't stand it , i don't know what is going to happen , not ready Walsh , kil elee y3rfoone yadroon enee wa7da ashta6 b kill Shay . Ashta6 to plan my vacation ashta6 bl shopping , ashta6 on getting the it bag or shoes . But b salfat elbeet am not :( I feel guilty , and i am afraid JJ will hate me :( i am not sure if he is going to read this post or no .
God , waayed ta3bana .
Kil elee ga3da a7es fee b anther ekmojtama3 gala6 , bas hathe elee a7es feeh , I don't have the courage to tell anyone cuz everybody will think I am selfish woman .
When i got married to JJ i discovered that the most important thing in my life kilsh ma ynasba , Shno halshay , traveling !!
He hates traveling , maskeen he travels with me bas 3shane , bas bl9j he hates elsofar .
Mom toggle elee ysm3ich ygool enah e7na ma ken a nsfrich !! My parents y7boon elsofar waayed . So kena nsafer bl sena 2 to 3 times , 3ks JJ's family ma y7boon elsofar o ohwa ma y7eb 2
Akeed kil wa7da tkoon 7a6a f balsa image 7g elzawaaj . Fe wa7da her image enha tgoom kil yoom tswee el coffee 7ag her husband , my sister told me enha kanat t7lim blzawaj enha tkoon ga3da in her living room with her husband o 5 or 6 kids around them , yarab alaah yrzgha yarab she needs that to be happy .
My image , never thought about children , Walah i believe it when some wise people told me that God gives you what you really need , not what you want , I know I can't be a good mother , I can't be staying at home when I know that I can be hanging out or traveling . Plz don't get me wrong but walah that is what I am thinking of.why I went into treatments to get pregnant ?? Cuz everyone is getting pregnant in the family :/
Takmelat 9orat elzawaj enee akoon ma3aah , ashkalna tshaweg and we r traviling mn deera le deera , kana 7lmee enah bl weekend mn ger any planning Nsafer , we go into advantures , nswee crazy stuff . But ma 7a9al halshay
Walah I anot saying I am not happy with my life walah hubby is trying his best to make me feel happy , bas ham bad ma ygdar ygha9b nafsa 3la shay ma y7ba :(
And now the house thing , elkil ykalmne , yalaah 3ad lazm twafreen , yalaah 3ad lam tshdeen 7eelich , elshya elee ga3da a7es feeh enah khlaaaa9 wag elwanasaa ra7 , jj ra7 ynshgel 3anee :( ma ra7 akoon fbalah , o halshay mta3bneeee . Tra e7na mo el couples elee lazgeen f ba3ath , Ana 3nde my life o ohwa ba3ad bas ma agdar at7mal enah ra7 ynshgel ma agar .
He will hate me , o halshay mn el7een beda :( Ga3ed y7es nee sakheefa o ma at7mal ay responsibility . Alaah yaster walah . My next bday i I'll turn 30 enshalah , i was dreaming of special birthday , amazing gift , travel to somewhere , all these stuff to3tbar sakhfa for him cuz now ako Shay ham , i was dreaming to take that fashion styling course in uk , to go on trip with him to the state . Kil hatha will not happened :(
Think of me as silly , superficial but kil ennsan priorities in life . To enjoy every moment in my life you jj only you with nothing dakheel 3aleena is my priority . Hope u will understand