Abdullah

Dearest Abdullah


Shall I call U Abdullah , or 3aboode as I always do ? tonight I was thinking about U and about the days that we have been through , when I first meet U I was really disappointed I still remember that feeling , the dryness inside my throat which hurt me when I tried to swallow . , he is a boy I told myself , I want a girl , I hold dad’s hand when he lead me in to see mom after her operation she was tired she didn’t talk to me she didn’t even look at me . I was small almost 4 years but I don’t know how I can remember this situation and I can not forget it .

At this day I noticed that I will still keep my imaginary sisters with me  when u grow up I remember treating u as a girl , do u remember our game “welcome my princes “ تفضلي يا اميرتيand of course u were the princes not me :
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Then “S” arrived and I had a sis heheh I am not the only girl anymore : )

Back 2 u when we grow older I noticed why mom was treating u differently she told me how the doctors told her that u r dying inside her womb and they r trying their best just to safe the mother , U r Unique even your way to enter the world was different your hand comes out first and u got stacked causing mom to be in a very difficult situation hehehe strange : ) mom felt that she lost u but mashalah u r a life heheh after hearing this story I looked differently at u , I can not loose u , I have to take care of u and to be sure that u r safe : )

Every member in our family did the same , u r the spoiled one , and enta she6an u noticed that : )

Remember your early years in schools , how u annoyed mom hehe u hated math and u did stuff that mom can’t stand she kept shouting and screaming and then she hugged u , U r Unique .

U r growing up and our love to u is growing more , I remember when I change your hair look by using hair gel lifting it up you forehead , drawing moustache on your face imaging u r growing up and u were really silly at that time also daloo3 :P sleeping in our room with me and “s” cuz u were khawaaf and u keep imaging sharshabeel

While u r growing up your personality started to show and appear to us , how kind u r , how sweet , how naive u r , u r “white “man , so pure , waaaaaayed 6ayeb , u can not sleep if anyone of us is mad on u 7yateee so sweet .

Remember your first day at collage ????? I was senior and it was your first year , I meet u in the “show street “as u called it heheh an the art collage I saw my sweet little 3abood walking and holding your L.V file --I remember that u insist that you want it : ) telling u the truth tears comes to my eyes , I saw girls who r older than u smiling at u and looking at u hehehe I am telling my self ambeeh ma ydroon hathaa 3aboody heheeh mashalah u look older than u r , u r tall and handsome 2 
And still u r a child , thinking like a sweet kid , u thought that everybody is thinking like u that all people r pure and good , u got shocked from people , u ve been hurt by others and this hurts me , but mashalaah I feel that God is protecting u because u r a good man :) I need hundreds of pages talking about u 3aboody

Now u r preparing your papers to start your job enshalah I just wanna hug u 3abood my little brother is going to work and started to “ t7en “ about getting married hehheehehe

Alaah ykhleek lena 3abood o ya7fthik o ya7meek God bless u enahalah

But remember u r still my little 3aboode 